Saturday, January 8, 2022

Long Time No See

Hey everyone!

It's already more that a year I've not update or open my blog since my previous post. Well I don't think I have a reader who consistently reading my post anyways hahaha but still I'm sorry okay.

Last year, I've been struggling with my life. It's no longer related about love life. It's more about my lifestyle, my studies, my inner thoughts and my dreams. I'm already at my 3rd year of degree in bachelor of nursing but here I am still questioning if I can go through all the shit that I need to face in the future. At some point, there is some part of me want to give up on my studies. But I don't want to waste all my time, money and my parents' hope at this point. So don't worry about me okay. I'm gonna graduate with this degree at 2023 insyaallah.

I do want to share some of my experiences during last year but maybe I'll write them on another post. Well even though last year is not my best year but still there are few things that happened and I happy about it. So stay tuned! Don't worry you'll not need to wait for another one year for the next post hahahah >.<

I have a really bad breakout so I prefer to hide my face hahahaha

P/s: My name is Hasyimah, My friends love to call me syima, syims and some boys even called me hasyim maybe because I'm a bit 'boy'ish. So no more cik kentang okay.


With love,
Syims

Thursday, May 28, 2020

CovEid 2020

Assalamualaikum and hi everyone,

I hope it's not late for me to wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all of you. I hope that you guys have a great and wonderful time with your family. Since we are still on the phase of Movement Control Order (MCO), we are not allowed to celebrate eid mubarak like we use to do. We only can go to visit other house at the first day of eid and only 20 people maximum in one house. 

This raya feels a bit different since my brother and sister cannot go back home since they live in selangor while me at johor as we need to follow the SOP from the government. On the first day, we only video call to wish selamat hari raya. To be honest, I feel a bit sad because I cannot meet them. 


I hope that the virus Covid-19 outbreak will end soon. Take care and stay healthy guys!

With love,
CK

Tuesday, May 19, 2020

Drawing : A Quick Drawing During Classes

Hi guys! I really don't have any idea to post in my blog but since I'm doing nothing at home, I'd figured out that I should share my drawing at here. Yupp my hobby is drawing, it's either doodle or anime characters. I love to draw both. I'm not talented enough in this field but I tried. I started to find out that I like to draw during my high school. When I was form 1, I've a "kakak dorm" who is talented in drawing anime characters. I always see her spend her time in drawing. Since that moment, I tried to involve myself in this field. It quite hard but I love it. I really love to draw. I love to see  how myself improve in drawing from one time to another one. So here I attach two pictures of my drawing that I drew back then. I kinda bored during classes so I spend my time to draw this heheh. I just search any anime characters in google and try to draw it.





I have a dream to be better in drawing. I have a dream to be like Teme Abdullah. I bet most of us know who is him, right? For those who don't know him, he is an architecture in London. Here you can click this link to know more about Teme Abdullah. You also can stalk his ig (Ig Teme). I also start to draw like Teme's drawing and I will update it in another post, insyaallah.

With loves,
CK.

Saturday, May 16, 2020

Cerpen : Cuma Seorang Runner


This 'cerpen' is written by me. To be honest I made this essay just to enter short story competition that had been organised by one of the society club in my university. The result is not announce yet but yaa I know I can't win since so many talented people who also send their essay. Since I think this essay might be such a waste, why not I post it here so you can read it. Sorry if this essay not good enough because it is my first masterpiece, but yaa enjoy it okay.


“Ah hujan lagi,” ujarku.

Dingin. Air hujan turun perlahan. Satu persatu titik air jatuh ke muka bumi. Sekali-sekala angin dingin menampar lembut tubuhku. Perasaan resah dan bimbang mula menyelubungi diri ini. Cuaca hari ini sudah tentu akan menyusahkan tugasku. Jalan raya yang sunyi dan kosong itu aku tenung dari tingkap rumah.

Jam di dinding sudah menunjukkan jam 2 petang. Aku mula mendapat pesanan makanan secara atas talian satu persatu. Runner? Ya, itulah pekerjaan aku. Mengambil pesanan makanan dan menghantarnya kepada pelanggan tanpa mengira teriknya mentari mahupun dinginnya hujan. Walaupun upahnya tidaklah banyak mana, tapi mampu menampung kehidupan bujangku. Sudah dua tahun aku menjadi seorang runner di Melaka Bandaraya Bersejarah. Dahulu pekerjaanku dipandang remeh tetapi sejak wabak Covid-19 mula melanda Malaysia dan sejak Perintah Kawalan Pergerakan (PKP) dikuatkuasakan, pekerjaanku kini merupakan salah satu tugas yang penting. Hanya sektor-sektor tertentu sahaja yang dibenarkan bekerja dan yang selebihnya tidak dibenarkan untuk keluar dari rumah kecuali atas hal-hal mustahak.

Sudah sebulan PKP dijalankan dan kini sudah hari kelima Ramadan. Masih ada yang berdegil melanggar arahan dari pihak berkuasa. Kerajaan terpaksa mengerahkan barisan polis dan askar untuk memastikan rakyat faham dan akur dengan perintah ini. Ada yang ditangkap dan ada yang didenda sejumlah wang. Terlintas di fikiranku, apa yang mereka fikirkan? Adakah mereka terlampau bosan berada di rumah atau mereka hanya mahu mengambil angin luar? Ah tidakkah mereka sedar perbuatan mereka bukan sahaja menyusahkan diri sendiri malah menyusahkan banyak pihak.

            Kunci motor ku ambil. Helmet ku pakai. Baju hujan aku sarungkan ke tubuhku. Tidak dilupakan sarung tangan, topeng muka dan hand sanitizer juga aku pakai sebagai langkah pencegahan jangkitan Covid-19. Walaupun aku hanyalah seorang runner dan bukannya petugas kesihatan, aku perlu mengambil langkah berjaga-jaga.

            “Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,” lafazku sambil menghidupkan enjin motor. Masa untuk aku menjalankan tugas.

……….

           

“Terima kasih bang!”

            “Sama-sama. Selamat bertugas dan selamat berbuka!” Mataku sayu memandang mereka. Tempahan makanan yang terakhir itu merupakan dari anggota polis yang menjaga sekatan jalan raya. Terlampau sibuk bekerja sehinggakan terpaksa berbuka di atas jalan. Sudah menjadi tugas mereka untuk mengawal lalu lintas dan memastikan tiada siapa yang melanggar arahan pihak kementerian.

Telefon pintarku di bag, aku keluarkan. Jam di paparan telefon menunjukkan jam 6.30 petang. Aku bergegas pulang untuk berbuka puasa di rumah. Nasib baik aku sempat membeli juadah untuk berbuka.

……….

            Sunyi. Apam balik dan air bandung di atas meja itu aku tenung. Sepatutnya aku berada di rumah orang tuaku untuk menyambut Ramadan bersama. Tetapi kerana PKP, aku masih disini, di rumah sewaku. Lamunanku terhenti apabila terdengar azan maghrib berkumandang. Segera aku membaca doa buka puasa. Juadah berbuka mulaku jamah sedikit demi sedikit.

……….

            Usai solat tarawih, telefon aku berdering. Ah ibu rupanya. Lantas panggilan dari ibu aku jawab.

            “Assalamualaikum, along! Sihat?” soal ibu. Along? Itulah gelaranku di rumah kerana aku merupakan anak sulong dan abang kepada tiga orang adikku.

            “Waalaikumussalam, ibu! Alhamdulillah sihat. Ibu?” balasku.

            “Alhamdulillah sihat. Ibu call ni sebab nak tanya along balik Muar tak raya nanti? Adik- adik along tu dah rindu sangat dengan along. Asyik tanya je bila along nak balik.” Tergamam aku saat soalan ibu singgah di telingaku. Wajah adik lelakiku yang berumur 13 tahun dan dua orang adik perempuanku yang berumur 17 tahun dan 9 tahun kini bermain di fikiranku.

            “Tak pasti lagi laa ibu. Bergantung dengan bilanya PKP berakhir. Insyaallah, along usahakan. Kirim salam along buat diorang dan ayah sekali ye.” Dadaku berombak laju. Perlahan-lahan air mataku mula gugur. Tak terungkap rasa rindu di hati.

            “Oh yeke. Insyaallah ibu sampaikan salam along. Ibu nak tidur dah ni. Assalamualaikum.” Suara ibu kecewa.

            “Waalaikumussalam,” balasku lemah. Panggilan telefon dari ibu aku matikan. Pantas aku menyeka air mataku yang masih bersisa di pipi.

            Tubuhku perlahan aku humban ke atas tilam. Aku terlentang di atas katil sambil merenung siling putih yang kini kekuningan sedikit mungkin kerana sudah bertahun lamanya sejak rumah sewa ini dibina. Cahaya putih lampu yang dipasang di siling bilikku sedikit pun tidak menyilaukan mataku. Fikiranku lebih tertumpu terhadap perbualanku bersama ibu sebentar tadi. Bukan niatku menghampakan harapan mereka untuk pulang ke rumah menyambut Aidilfitri bersama, cuma aku tidak mahu menabur janji yang tidak pasti. Maafkan along, ibu! Perlahan mataku tertutup. Pandanganku gelap.

……….

            Petang Sabtu yang cerah ini aku cadang untuk rehat sepenuhnya kerana hari Sabtu dan Ahad aku tidak bekerja. Telefon pintar di atas meja ruang tamu segera aku ambil. Sedang aku melayari laman media sosial, aku tertarik dengan aktiviti-aktiviti menarik sepanjang kuarantin di rumah yang dikongsikan oleh netizen di media sosial. Ada yang cuba untuk memasak resepi baharu, ada yang sibuk membuat video kreatif menggunakan aplikasi TikTok dan ada juga yang menggunakan tempoh kuarantin dengan melakukan senaman ringkas. Pelbagai aktiviti yang mereka lakukan untuk menghilangkan kebosanan.

            Tiba-tiba aku terfikir nasib petugas-petugas barisan hadapan seperti petugas kesihatan di hospital mahupun klinik-klinik kecil yang lebih terdedah kepada jangkitan virus Covid-19, polis yang menjaga sekatan jalan raya ketika panas terik mahupun hujan lebat dan pekerja-perkerja di perkhidmatan kurier yang menerima berpuluh-puluh ribu bungkusan untuk dihantar kepada penerimanya di seluruh Malaysia. Tugas mereka memerlukan tahap komitmen dan sabar yang tinggi di musim kuarantin ini. Ada di antara mereka tidak dapat pulang ke rumah untuk bersama keluarga tercinta kerana risau akan kesihatan ahli keluarga mereka. Ada juga yang bekerja di bandar dan tidak dapat balik ke kampung untuk menjenguk orang tuanya. Hanya mampu melakukan panggilan video sahaja untuk mengubat rindu di hati.

            Mereka merupakan wira negara. Jika dahulu pekerjaan mereka dipandang enteng, kini pekerjaan merekalah yang mampu menyelamatkan berjuta-juta nyawa rakyat Malaysia. Aku yakin rakyat Malaysia juga sudah mula sedar akan pengorbanan mereka. Semoga mereka mampu memberikan kerjasama untuk terus kekal duduk di rumah dan mengikuti setiap arahan dari pihak kementerian sepanjang tempoh PKP ini dilaksanakan kerana setiap seorang dari mereka mempunyai tanggungjawab untuk membendung virus Covid-19 dari terus merebak.

            Bunyi hon dari kereta yang lalu di jalan raya depan rumahku menghentikan lamunanku. Aku toleh ke arah jam di dinding.          

“Eh dah pukul 6.00 petang laa. Makanan berbuka puasa belum buat lagi.”

Terlampau tenggelam dalam fikiranku sendiri sehingga tidak sedar waktu berbuka hampir tiba. Aku terfikir tentang diriku. Aku cuma seorang runner. Aku bukan siapa-siapa untuk diletakkan sebaris dengan petugas-petugas barisan hadapan yang lain. Jika mereka diluar sana mengiktiraf aku sebagai petugas barisan hadapan, terima kasih aku ucapkan. Perlahan aku bangun meninggalkan ruang tamu dan menuju ke dapur.


Tuesday, March 31, 2020

Happy Birthday To Me!

Me Turned 20
This post kinda late but that doesn't change the fact I already turned 20 on 20 March 2020. Alhamdulillah and thanks to everyone because being a part of my life. May Allah showers you with continuous happiness! So I think I'm gonna write a letter to my 10 year-old self. 
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A Letter to My 10 Year-Old Self
Dear You,

Yeah it's me, your 20 year-old self. I'm gonna give some advice that really going to help you to get through another 10 years ahead. 

First of all, you gonna prepare yourself to sit for UPSR examination in 2012 but don't worry it's easy hehehe. How do I know? Well I'm you after all. 

2013 will be a starting point where you will experience all sort of emotions. At 13, you will pursue your study in a boarding school. Even though separated from your parents, you still think that everything will be fine but hell no. During 5 years in a boarding school, you will grow with a trust issue. No one want to befriend with you but you never know the real reasons for that. Trying to change your behavior, change the way you talk, trying to get a position in school societies so you can be famous - because you just wanna fit yourself in your friend's circle. You want to have a friend at least so you can share your feelings. You want to be acknowledge by your friends. Later on, boys start to body shaming you, start to face shaming you. People make fun of you. You'll cry a lot. At that moment, you think you have no worth at all. At the middle of your senior years, you start to have friends. Real friends. The one that will be there for you through thick or thin.

At 18 to 19, you’ll be angry at the decisions your parents make for you. You feel helpless as a child for having no right to choose anything that you want. You start to have a serious feeling of love towards someone. From a person to another. The latest one gonna hurt you. You will not cry as hard as the previous one because you already adapt that kind of feelings. At some point, the tears stop, but your heart won’t cease crying for the next few months.

I am here writing this letter to you. I want to say that you are an amazing person. You have no idea how strong you are. The tears and rejection that you will go through for 10 years ahead not gonna stop you from being kind to others. You will hurt someday because you are going to put yourself in so much pain either intentional or accidental. But heyy! Don't give up! You are amazing. You are worth for living. You are enough. You always care more about your friends than yourself. You are beautiful with your own way.

With loves,
Yourself in 20




Thursday, February 27, 2020

Wanted: A New Blog List for March-July 2020

Hi there! I'll never join any segment that other bloggers had organized. 
So yeah I'm gonna participate this segment that organized by Anis.
Btw Anis ask us to tell about our favorites food. I don't have any specific foods that I love. I love to eat any foods as long it's delicious. But my priority is my mom's homemade foods especially "Asam Pedas". Gosh suddenly I feel hungry hahahah. 
I think that's all. If you want to participate this segment, click the banner. Oh yaa the due date is 28/2/2020 which is tomorrow. Make sure you don't miss it.
With loves,
CK

I Want To Be Like Her

I want to be like her...
That kind of girl that doesn't care
what people talk about her.

I want to be like her...
That kind of girl that brave enough
to stand in front the crowd.

I want to be like her...
When she enter a room
everyone stares at her.

I want to be like her...
She spreads loves
even to her enemies.

I want to be like her...
So beautiful
yet so humble.

I want to be like her...
She is perfect
in everyone's eyes.

But...

I'll never be like her...
because she is she
and me is me.


Me is me.
Feeling insecurity every time.
Feeling down every moments.
Always nervous and afraid when standing in front of crowd.
No one notices my presence.
But I hope they'll notice my absence.

With all of this weaknesses of mine, I hope I can overcome it one by one.
So one day,
You will seeing the new me.
The new version of me that more confident in all aspects.
And maybe that version will be more perfect than the girl that I want to be.
Insyaallah.


With loves,
CK